Choking on nothing,

A lake falling from my eyes,

I hurt,

But I don’t know why

 

All I want,

Is to be alone,

To be alone with my thoughts,

Depressing as they might be

 

I can’t see a future,

My sight is blurry,

My voice gone,

My hearing blocked,

My feelings overwrought

 

I don’t know why,

I have everything,

But something seems to be missing,

Something I had before

 

Peace of mind, perhaps

Or ignorance,

For once knowledge is learned,

How does one unlearn

 

I can’t seem to find,

Any beam of light,

So try as I might,

I can’t cheer up

 

For those that I love,

I so wish I could,

For there is no reason to my unhappiness,

For they need not suffer

 

But I am lost,

In swirling darkness,

In an abyss,

Separate from the world

 

I see people trying to find me,

To help me out

But how can they find me,

If I fail at every attempt

 

I am going nowhere,

Stuck in the same place,

I don’t do anything,

For it feels far too late

 

No one is going to save me,

And I can’t save myself,

I suppose this is my goodbye,

My farewell to the world

01/13/2017